Today I felt split right down the middle. For most of the day, I was struggling with myself over something that I think will be pretty important in my life. I'm not going to go into the details here because its my personal struggle and if I put it out here it wouldn't be internal anymore, would it? I will tell you it was a question that rooted all the way down to the core of who I am, to the core of the person I want to be. It was physically painful for me and for the better part of the day it felt like I had say, a rather large pig, parked right on my rib cage. And he was wearing combat boots and stomping around mercilessly.
And then I read this statement:
"This is about your life and what it would look like if you went nuts with your own personal courage."
It was in a Phoenix New Times article about a local yoga studio owner who, at 37, is breaking all the rules just by being alive. She has cystic fibrosis and was told when she was 7 that she might not live past the age 11. I'd say she knows a thing or two about going nuts with her own personal courage.
The statement just sought me out. I don't think it was meant to be a sound byte or a stand alone. It was just part of a paragraph like dozens of other sentences. But let me tell you, that pig had to do some pretty fancy footwork to avoid the ton of bricks that that sentence hurled at me.
"This is about your life and what it would look like if you went nuts with your own personal courage."
Now internal struggle is suddenly floating around in a great big sea of inspiration. Not gone, not lost, but buoyed. Definitely buoyed.
What would my life look like if I went nuts with my own personal courage? If I told my id and ego to stand up straight and ball up their fists and take a running leap right into the deep end of life? Would I just get water up my nose and come up sputtering for air and begging for a life preserver? Or would I find the lost city of Atlantis? Or maybe just salvage my wrecked ship of dreams?
What would your life look like if you went nuts with your own personal courage?
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